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2026
ewaneneollav:on google street view trying to forensically determine the exact spot from which a...original ↗
21 Sept 2026
on google street view trying to forensically determine the exact spot from which a photograph used...original ↗
21 Sept 2026
21 Sept 2026
i cannot make out anything salvational even in the idea of waking up tomorrow magically not upset...original ↗
21 Sept 2026
the thought of a person sympathizing with my opposition to my own body is itself an inevitable...original ↗
20 Sept 2026
i feel shorn of all impulses or personal characteristics other than sitting, staring, walking where...original ↗
20 Sept 2026
i spent a couple of hours feeling like my willingness to have a personality was faintly creeping...original ↗
20 Sept 2026
voice audibly strained by random abdominal pain as i narrate to my friend apropos of nothing that...original ↗
20 Sept 2026
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i keep arriving back to the airbnb shellshocked & having fantasies of physically attacking my...original ↗
20 Sept 2026
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i have a track record of rare intermittent occasions of falling asleep on a bed with numerous other...original ↗
20 Sept 2026
i would like to cut off everyone that i know & interact exclusively with someone assigned to me...original ↗
20 Sept 2026
there were numerous times last year that i lied on the floor in a closet drunkenly strangling myself...original ↗
20 Sept 2026
20 Sept 2026
for a person whose parents are essentially strangers to them, it’s completely reasonable that...original ↗
17 Sept 2026
it kind of feels like my mind is reflexively trying to operate as minimally as possible all of the...original ↗
17 Sept 2026
i randomly remembered an interaction with someone in early 2022 or early 2023 that made me laugh so...original ↗
17 Sept 2026
my body did this to me, which means that accepting the proposition “i am my body” would...original ↗
17 Sept 2026
i’ve read that many people come to experience feelings of depersonalization & emotional erasure...original ↗
17 Sept 2026
my dissociation is a rational response to the irreparable absence of myself, the experience of being...original ↗
17 Sept 2026
when all you are trying to do is not remember something, & that is your only possible defense...original ↗
17 Sept 2026
since i biologically do not possess my own voice but a different one, to physically speak is to...original ↗
17 Sept 2026
extremely excited to see the developing note ratio between two adjacent posts of mine, with one...original ↗
16 Sept 2026
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16 Sept 2026
listening to one folk or blues rock or 2000s pop country album per year while always thinking...original ↗
16 Sept 2026
1. at the same time that a person is a conscious subject, they also have to deal with being objects...original ↗
16 Sept 2026
Do you spontaneously imagine what they are experiencing? Do their emotions acquire reality beyond...original ↗
16 Sept 2026
ewaneneollav:i think recurringly about “in trouble” as a condition normally encountered throughout...original ↗
16 Sept 2026
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16 Sept 2026
currrent experimental adderall pattern is 15mg extended release as early in the day as possible but...original ↗
15 Sept 2026
12 Sept 2026
a way i frequently walk up stairs is two steps at a time while leaned down forward so my kneecaps...original ↗
12 Sept 2026
ewaneneollav:
https://a8.asurahosting.com:9420/radio.mp3
prior to linking this i’d played:...original ↗
12 Sept 2026
only learned tonight that the etiology of my most significant current local friendship is...original ↗
12 Sept 2026
imagining two people taking edibles & going into a really grody vape shop, evaluating the most...original ↗
12 Sept 2026
i had an experience after work this week, i don’t remember what day it was, but i was outside...original ↗
12 Sept 2026
i tend to feel like if i express any aspect of myself that i would describe as “naturally...original ↗
11 Sept 2026
feeling that you don’t have the right to have anything to do with anyone, & then, while...original ↗
11 Sept 2026
i think that my family’s constant preemptive parody of any encounter with genuine emotion...original ↗
11 Sept 2026
wikipedia is cancer because it doesn’t present itself as a set of standing proposals for...original ↗
11 Sept 2026
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10 Sept 2026
the feeling of full, total, preemptive foreclosure of any possibility of actual existence by the...original ↗
10 Sept 2026
i cannot describe the way that my body upsets me, because it feels like a separate & more...original ↗
10 Sept 2026
what i’m realizing is that there is no way of authentically describing what is happening to...original ↗
9 Sept 2026
if there has ever been any basis for me to develop the inclination to write or even think about my...original ↗
9 Sept 2026
i feel like i’m dissociating less & less at work as time goes on but the only way i can...original ↗
9 Sept 2026
9 Sept 2026
8 Sept 2026
it is humiliating to be perceived by others as the affirmable presence of someone in particular,...original ↗
8 Sept 2026
8 Sept 2026
i don’t know how much i quietly depersonalize other people anymore because i have lost track...original ↗
8 Sept 2026
fully relaxing around anyone i know is impossible because it creates the possibility of appearing...original ↗
8 Sept 2026
i’ve never had a real life face-to-face argument in my entire life because i can only take the...original ↗
7 Sept 2026
women were already selectively using the word “men” in a sense more or less unknowingly...original ↗
7 Sept 2026
ewaneneollav:
ewaneneollav:
https://a8.asurahosting.com:9420/radio.mp3going on the radio in...original ↗
6 Sept 2026
6 Sept 2026
one of the primary anxieties related to being around other people is questioning whether they really...original ↗
6 Sept 2026
when i was more like myself i feel like i could stare out a window at any empty street intersection...original ↗
6 Sept 2026
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